fizzly explosion in my stomach as gerald feels like a mouldy piece of fat that was girting on the bread. chuckie was too scared to stop and smell the roses, too scared of that pen. how can anything work when you don't even try? how can anything work when you just give in and switch off your mind? turn the lights back on because it's so musty and grey in here that i can't see a thing. i'm brushing up against things i never even knew existed while i move with my eyesandears blindfolded. you'll see me coming at you and run away with the sunny autumn day becoz there's no other way you'd rather be. but hold onto your tongue because i bet i can fix you up even in this dim light where nothing seems to be going right. aren't you just screaming on the rollercoaster and enjoying the view at the top and vomiting all over everyone else's hair? oh i remember when i felt your breath and your nose almost touched my skin and i smilt so much because your presence calms me and lets out all kinds of liquids into my legs. man oh man oh boy oh boy. but we know that the world is cruel we're both almost asking for the world not to treat us right, we don't expect things to be beautiful too much, we don't expect the best things in our lives, we just hope but get scared when there may be a chance of having the best. i'm so glad that we've got that little sandwich, because smiles are sometimes all i need, even if things are going stupidly and shockingly and ive stopped working and given up again for a few days, well then id dream and then id remember our sandwich and smile. sucking on skateboards never was good for getting rid of splinters in your forearm. feet that are cold could be the end of you, as well as biscuits that are so so sweet and eyes that are red.
i never wanted to become like this but i never knew what i wanted so things became and became.
scoot over sooty and ill sweep the dust off your seat.