sugar-coated veins full of coffee

can't stop trying

running round in circles
my feet making a pounding sound and and digging up the ground,
grounding up everything around, going down down down
til i feel rundown
and so anxious i think
can't pinpoint the pixel
but all this chocolate blood exerts a sigh
oh cry cry cry
fucking why?

i'll draw our lives up on paper and send it to you in the mail
it will never fail i've got this plan i've got it all worked out
everything will go to plan i've got it all worked out
thinking too much and getting all these little squiggles caught in branches in my brain maybe it's driving me insane
escape and hide and play
take me on a holiday to a warm bath thats tucked away in the ocean surrounded by sand and a big rock and i'll lie there in my warm bath and stare at the sky while bleeding everything out while you sit midst the bushes with your knees pulled up to your mouth watching me watching the sky fade to black. then the water turns black as well and i fall into it and everything falls into the water and everything just falls and falls. then suddenly turns white it's alright.

i'm sad for jane i wish she didnt feel this pain
it's ok tomorrow it will rain.