sunshine, lollipops, rainbows and monstrous weapons of war

i want to die.
why does everything hurt so much sometimes i dont know.
but theres a fine line between pleasure and pain.
so maybe pleasure will come with/after the pain. who knoweths?
anyway i just feel like my insides are eating each other.
its not a major medical condition, no, just a phase.
why am i writing this?
its pretty fun to have your own site that no-one reads coz then i can just blabber on and on and not worry about what the people who are gonna be reading this are gonna think coz there probably wont be anyone who will read this anyway.
but yeah most importanly, i like pineapple juice most of the time.
adieu.