a mixture of moments and trains and too much

you're choking on all your churning saliva
just digging up a cave in your stomach
and the words are all swimming in the air around you
and the words have sliced a shiver down your spine
now they're dancing in circles inside your head
will these healthcare-worker hands smooth down your skin?
will these white windows be opened to suck light, air, love in?
choking on your oesophagus
do these judging voices everpitter patter quietly down?
the birds violently dive after each other- their brave blind hearts pumping through their chests
are you gonna dive after me?
or will i try for you and then crash and fall for evermore?
the softening sawdust scents tickle my nose
an eyelash graces the page
i'm enjoying all this nostalgia and panty-hose
paralysed, sitting so motionless, stuck in the moment that she didn't even see me,
this paralysis getting all too familiar somehow
you feel the sun on your shoulders and your head's heavy now
burnt, charcoal smoking off on the insides of your insides
sparkling spheres stir a smile for a sweet second
but the silence, the towering cloaked silence
suffocates all the baby animals and their pale paws,
what if time is standing still and will things ever change, ever progress?
you only wait a minute or two- but even that waiting seems speedy, there's no impatience any more
before you know it, before you know it, before you know it,
the doors open and you didn't even have the time to think
but you are snaking along through all the chunky metal
hoping things get better,
until this trickly train of thought

is derailed.


......

World wind

Do you ever get so blown away by the world?
That you start to fall down
And collapse
And just tumble
And tumble
And tumble
And you are swept up and
Collected
In a million different pieces
N’ then when you try to put yourself back together again
Things are a little wonky
Things don’t really fit
And some pieces are missing

But you stand back up again
With your eyes facing into the wind
And you let your hair blow back off behind you
And suddenly some little something triggers a smile to pop out of you
And suddenly your feet start moving to dance to the beat of this song
And suddenly you feel like you are steering your boat in the right direction
You lick up this satisfaction of yours that you are feeling
And taste the sweetness in amongst all the other flavours you can feel

And things are ok for now,
Things may have been worse yesterday,
And things will be better tomorrow
As the wind changes its speed and its direction,
Sometimes you will float
Sometimes you will soar or
You may lose control and get sucked up in this world wind
For a moment

But you are so strong
And I know that you can handle it

endyendyendend

he y
i wonder

if theres ever a point where things just end?

what is the end?
does anything ever actually end?
the end has no end?

the end.





what end?

THE end?

but it never really is.
where is the end?

whattttt end?

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

THE END.

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