evol fo maerd

i love the panda band.
and i also love some other good music and things.
so just because i know you know that you want to know and i know it and all of that and some other things you know and yeah i know ok know know know knife..um here are some other bands that one day recently when i was having a 'lets find some good music and just get lost in it' time i listened to. and things.
sorry if this list is so long and you don't care but...but....but....
of montreal
sarah blasko
cat power
cat stevens
neutral milk hotel
mountain goats
kings of leon
mew
matisyahu
new buffalo
modest mouse
joy division
new order
jens lekman
holly throsby
hole
diamond nights
aberfeldy
flaming lips
deerhoof
the dears
david bowie
cold war kids
the cure
the cranberries
camera obscura
belle and sebastian
bright eyes
ben kweller
the bens
animal collective
arcade fire
air
the smiths
yo la tengo
zero 7
the shins
cut copy
gotye
spiderbait
something for kate
maximo park
tapes 'n tapes
the fratellis
postal service
polyphonic spree
smashing pumpkins


and yeah they may not have any relevance to anything or anything like that but i just wanted to write some of them down or whatever. i hate the feeling of not knowing who's reading this site. like if there's some weirdo creep or not. weirdo creeps can be cool, i just feel strange not knowing who could be reading this, and making assumptions about my life and who i am and everything. i hope you got your assumptions all wrong. coz everyday i'm different so you probably did.
today i love the world i love you
eat up yourself :)

hey you,

read me i'm a word!

noises

dance beat bump hump thump weep weemp beemp beep bopp

do yo kno ho go so slo cho bro fro?

eets tai ehm two suh mye ell

okey ok okey ok dokey ok doke ok ok ok ok ok ok i think i get the picture

a wild creature?!! hahahahahaha playsome jeetar k

shall you eat some apple or that's enough?

this is so much cents making you wouldn't believe it

get out of my head NO

measure your pleasure

how big is it for you in your life?
does the scale go up and down?
what gives you your's?
is your life a quest to find that elusive pleasure you're just hoping for and hanging on and dreambelieving in?
maybe you'll never find it. maybe you already have. maybe you shouldn't worry, just lower your expectations for the moment and find pleasure in what's around. pretend like you've never heard of such things as other more fantastic pleasures.
sometimes knowledge is bad for us. there's probably some relevant philosophical quote or something like 'knowledge is power' or one of those to back this up but it is a freaky thing. and how do we know that we know? and all that, i could get tangled up for hours and lightyears trying to work things out.
doesn't definitely matter.
NOW.
breathe in scintillating pink powdery air, breathe out greenyblue puff of dragon's breathsmoke. it's good.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006
pencils breathe to me

you know i love the sound of heavy greylead scraping across the paper page
it sounds so comforting to me
like someone breathing nearby
which is so soothing
and you sigh.

so just
BREATHE

and keep breathing.


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posted by raphael at 6:57 PM

fck

did you come to terms already did you do all of that already did you
am i ever gonna be ready am i
sneeze breathe nexto me
theyre all inside me sitting there smelling like corn and i dont like being vulnerable so i think that's where they'll stay
oh wow today is a big day. why can't i sleep? it's not like i don't know how it's just like something isn't right i just can't rest
sometimes i find it hard to understand people who make their minds up so fast
i take a while to make my bed want some rest instead.
i dont want to be caught between these branches i dont want to be left floating but then what the fuck do i want? does it matter? thankyou but do you have to hang on my opinion? gets me nervous. ok i just need something to winge about, i just need to try and make myself feel even better ok. i'm just not going to be your child and i'm just not going to stay forever i want to stray with the weather least for a bit and then suppose ill feel better. boombah likes to feel useful likes to feel needed and loved. sometimes i get down and i wonder how they do it and i wonder why i can't do it and i think i just want to sometimes it stuffs up yeh. come and sit out on the roof with me will you? forget suppressed woes and just let go. i'll draw us a map now then burn it.
sometimes all there is to think is "fuck". it just sums up lots well. sometimes its more like "fuck yeah" or "fuck no" or "fuck that" or "what the fuck?" but its almost always relevant. or something. pretty picture. yeah yeah yeah. picture that picture. yeah yeah yeah. pretty pretty. yeah yeah yeah. going for a bike ride. oh yeah yeah yeah yeah yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

lollies lillies lellies lallies lullies

such a mixed bag life is that when
you ruthlessly/eagerly/carefully/hesitantly dip your hand into the dark paper bag
your fingers brush up against all sorts of licorice all sorts and every sheen of jellybean
you grab harmless snakes who don't bite you
and frogs so red you're afraid that they do
you find strawberries atop a dollop of cream
and green minty leaves with a mystical gleam
there are freckles freckled with colourful spots
and orange-tasting jaffas which resemble red dots
you might find a banana all yellow with cheek
or be brushed by a chocolatey bullet so sleek
every colour of the rainbow is included within
the palate of candy-coated smarties you draw up to your chin

so what will your handful be full of? how many how fast and how ?
are your eyes open or closed? do you like colours or tastes or shapes or what?
what will surprise you? gah so much at once i want to vomit.

:S

can't sleep
or
don't want to
theres too much longing inside
it's like i know theres so much to be done that i can't be still anymore

you can't always get what you want
i wonder if we always want what we can't have?
slove is the best
maybe there is something better
maybe im too restless and thinking too much
when i should just put my head down and get to it
like the rest of them bright young heeby geebies.
ok great.
but i think it is still there.